Sasha Brudlo

Start the day with a visit from an old friend
I wasn’t sure I’d ever see again
but here he is
Say “leave me be” but it does no good
he says, “I was just in the neighborhood
and thought I’d drop in
how’ve you been?”

Yesterday, I thought I was fine
but it seems it’s going to take some more time
to get better

So if something’s wrong, then I don’t know
I’m leaving it undiagnosed
maybe it’ll fade
if I just wait
If it’s something time can’t heal
then who the hell cares how I feel?
if it’s here to stay
then I guess I’m okay

If the chemicals inside my brain
are the only thing driving me insane
how do I get better?

Lost a day or two living on the edge
of being a mess or handling it
and I got tired of feeling so dead
when I hadn’t lived yet
So I took it slow and I took a step
felt like I was scaling Mount Everest
and I’m not at the top of it yet
but I’m doing my best

Come so far, so far but I know
I’m one bad day away from losing control
and I’m scared of tomorrow
Climb in bed, the storm’s rolling in
been fine awhile so I’m wondering
what’s up with the weather?
Wasn’t I getting better?